.30

I tease myself with pictures of your new life
I break myself thinking of you and the
'what if's'
could have's
and maybe's
I need to hold on to the nights of staying out
the lies covering up every ugly truth
and everything false that came from your poisoned lips.
but I refuse, 
I repeat
refuse
to let you harm me in a way that I won't be able to slowly pick up every shattered piece of my soul.
DO NOT DISTURB, WORK IN PROGRESS